Gage and his cousin after a long day!!!!!All my life I have always said that I didn't want to be a stay at home mom! I have never had any interest in it and always wanted to be a teacher and have my career! I even said when I was pregnant that I wanted to go back to work at the end of the summer!
Yesterday I had a job interview! YEAH!! But as I got ready for the interview and fed Gage his morning bottle I realized that (hopefully) in a few weeks I will be doing this every day and I will be leaving Gage for almost 8 hours every day! I will be honest I started to cry while I was trying to do my hair. It hadn't hit me yet that I would miss him sooooo much!
I honestly never thought I would feel that way! I always thought it would be "no big deal" to go back to work and leave Gage with his Grandma and Grandpa McCann, but honestly I am already feeling anxious about it. (I am tearing up as I am typing)!
It is absolutely amazing how much love you can have for one little boy! I love him more than ANYTHING in this world. I know that even if I don't get a teaching job that I will have to at least sub for the school year because we can not afford for me not to bring home a paycheck! But I am not looking forward to that first day of leaving my little boy.
My prayer today is for God to help me not feel anxious about going back to work!
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You are in our prayers--I can't imagine how difficult that will be, going back to work! But it will be okay and you'll get used to it. You're at least lucky to have family to watch him, imagine taking him to day care 5 days a week. Good luck with the interview :).
aww Ashley I know the feeling all too well. It makes me cry to think of going back to work this fall too. Even though I had to do it for 2 months back when she was 3 mths old. I don't have a job yet either but will need to do SOMETHING pretty soon here. It is hard and you will cry but I promise you will get used to it and it will be okay eventually. But you will always be in a huge hurry to get home and snuggle and play etc. with your baby! It makes the evenings all that much better!
It will be okay Ashley.. snuggle him lots while you are with him now. It's a good feeling for Grandparents to get to watch him... and you will love the bond that grows between Gage and them. Kaden is IN LOVE with my mom... and Ronin started pointing and yelling "hey, hey" when he saw my mom's house yesterday. It's tough being away... but it helps for you to cherish the times you do get together.
I know how you feel....Every day I look at Ava and think to my self "how can one person love something this much". I think it will be hard to go back to work as well. I know that Grnadpa M will take good care of Gage as I know that Papa V will take great care of Ava. We are truly lucky to have grandparents to take care of our precious ones instead of strangers at a day care! I love you!
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